be careful what you wish for, 'cause you just might get it all

do you know something that gives us power to stay alive? to live our life day by day even if it's rough, messy, random, and unpredictable? it is dream, it is hope. well, at least it is in my case.

i don't know exactly how my parents raised me, but when i was young, i always liked to have imaginations. sometimes stupid, impossible, silly, or even overrated. now that i've grown up, i still like imagining, or daydreaming, but a little more realistic and possible ones, and i don't just dream about the dreams themselves, but also about my plans, my journey to reach them.

and that's what keeping me alive, giving me power to keep doing what i do, to keep waiting until the sun sets at the dusk and rises again at the dawn. injecting me with confidence everytime i try a chance out.

these dreams i pursue,well, each of them leads me to the biggest one.

oh, in case i haven't mentioned it, which i actually haven't, my biggest dream is stepping to every borders gate around the world. long story short, i want to explore every continent on planet earth. well, because i wasn't born to a royal family who rule a country or to a diplomat parent or to a worldwide businessman or a rockstar or because i wasn't born in a rich and superpower country, i have to make my own way to do that. i'm never sick of searching opportunities, trying out. i failed couple times, but i didn't stop there, i keep trying.

so far, i've been to 12 cities in 6 countries in 3 continents, not without difficulties though.

so now, at this point, i realize that dreams do come true, with several conditions:

1. if you believe

2. if you keep believing

3. if you never stop believing

because once you've believed, you always put it on your mind, it's planted down your deepest mind. so whatever you do, it leads you to it.

therefore, you've got to be careful of what you ever wish for. i was not careful once, so this all (is) happen(ing) to me:

when i was 16, i won my first scholarship abroad. i had a short course in Perth, Australia to study English. i was so excited, i was overwhelmed, back then, i said to myself that i would go back there again.

...and now, here i am. typing a posting in a warm bedroom on one of the driest inhabitant in the world, a country which is a franchise of The Great Britain, home of livestock farmers, charming surfers, and the aboriginals: Australia. i came back in almost 4 years after since, and again, not without difficulties

i'm not saying that this is a bad thing. this is a fantastic thing instead. i'm just saying that the power of dream is so strong, and sometimes unpredictable. so if you want to dream, dream big or don't dream at all ;)

Dear Ms. September

it was 3 years ago, the first day i met her. we were in the same class of an English course. at first i didn't feel like we would get along much well. until we were a pair our teacher set us up, and he mentioned something: "you are a Chelsea fan? well she's too!". so this all began with one thing: mutual interest.

after all, the term ended. we decided to do something together to celebrate it. so we went to a KTV and did what should be done in KTV: singing (duh!). since that time on, we noticed that we had (and remain to this day) same 'taste' of music. so this all continued with one thing: mutual hobby.

day after day, time passed away..uh, no, that's westlife's song...so, day after day, we started finding out where each others stand up. we started feeling comfortable being with each other. we shared, we cared, we laughed, we cried, we...understood. although i had been completely childish, selfish, and stupid. although we were in different world (school and work). so this all still went on with one thing: mutual understanding.

we then realized that we had similar view on most things. we wanted (and remain to this day) similar things to pursue. so this all was followed by one thing: mutual dream(s).

so, consciously or unconsciously, we've constructed things. we found out things. we feel things. those things are: love, and caring.

yes, I do love you, my bestfriend

yes, I do love you, my sister

yes, I do love you, my partner in crime

you have been my role model, you made me a better (wo)man, and you made me believe in dreams, and their power. now that we are in the middle of pursuing them, i should add this: it all remains with one thing: mutual position --> we are in the same boat

i feel so lucky, i thank God for sending you into my life, and i thank you for being....you

Happy birthday, Ms. September.

i can't say my wishes for you here, i have too many, but that doesn't mean i don't really wish them right? which actually i really do. they're here in my heart...well, in my head actually, but yes...i sincerely wish, so...in my heart

i can picture ourselves 10 years from now, still the same us, just better life, and of course, happier :)

ps. wish i could hug you

with love,

Me

we jump higher and higher, holding hands

kiss

On a Yahoo Messenger chatting this morning…

Me : I had a dream about you last night

Him : me too.

Me : yeah? How was it?

Him : we kissed. How was yours?

Me : we kissed

dreams

hmmh, setelah tertunda, akhirnya selese juga baca seri ke3 tetralogy LASKAR PELANGI :

e d e n s o r

wow. what a really inspirative one . berkisah tentang mimpi2 yg begitu tinggi, begitu liar, tetapi dapat diwujudkan dengan kegigihan dan keteguhan hati.

aku jadi sadar, aku juga pasti bisa, meraih mimpi-mimpiku yg bisa dibilang hampir sama liarnya dgn mimpi2 mereka. aku pasti bisa .

Edensor village , Derbyshire, England

dream n hope

di Jepang tuh asyikk bgtt .

barusan aku mengenang saat2 pas aku ke Jepang sebulan yg lalu . Program pertukaran pelajar JENESYS .

kenapa yah, di negeri2 orang yg prnah aku datengin, selalu 'lebih' dripada negeri sendiri .

bukannya gg nasionalis, bukannya gg cinta tanah air, ini cuma opini jujur yg keluar dari pikiranku .

mungkin hanya first impression semata, atau...banyak faktor .

tapi yg pasti, aku pingin kembali lagi ke sana . entah untuk belajar atau hanya sekedar liburan . atau bahkan, bekerja!!

waa. pasti asikk . ^^

so many things have been happening

blogging is fun, tpi kenapa yah, aku dah jarang update sejakk... um... 2 bulanan yg lalu lah .

padahal banyak bgt hal menarik in ma dayz ..

- pas aku ikut JENESYS ke Jepang (10 days full of joy^^)

- pas aku menjalani hari-hariku yang sepi tanpanya di sampingku (hundreds years full of tearsT.T)

- pas aku menjalani masa-masaku yang penuh dilema (tempted to be impulsive)

- pas aku menjadi seorang siswa kelas 12 yang menyenangkan sekaligus mendebarkan

untuk sekarang :

i'll try my best to get the best things in my life nowadays, be serious in class, and always pray..


(GOD, forgive me who always forgot You .. I'm really such a jerk, nasty, and stupid person ...)


AKU HARUS BERJUANG, AKU PASTI BISA, DEMI DIRINYA, DEMI DIRIKU, DAN DEMI MASA DEPANKU .


U G M ... wait for me ...

dream comes truee...

setelah perjuangan dan penantian yg panjaaang....

hhh...


akhirnya...!!! aku jadi berangkad ke Aussie...!


sumpe,, pas malem final aku bner" gag nyangka!!

emang sii, udh ada feeling" dikit...
tapi,, hah!! feelingku bneer..!!!
aku msk 4 bsar lagi!!!
hhhhhhuuuuuhhhhh.......

bener" dee...
The Miracle of Al-Fatihah...!!
Cuz sblum ngap"in pas final ntu,, akuu baca Al-Fatihah teyuuuzzz...
Subhanallah de....


tapi,, berakhirnya final tsb,, berakhir pula waktu bwt aku n tmen" bwt sama"....
tapi bkn berarti friendship qta juga berakhir loo...

senang sih,, bsa jd salah 1 pemenang...
but actually, we're all da champions koq...

sedih juga,, musti ninggalin tmen"...
ninggalin kaka'" yg baek"...

kapankah qta bsa ktmu lagii..??
>_<