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have you ever been in the middle of the crowds yet you still felt alone?

have you ever been brought somewhere by destiny yet then ended up by saying to yourself: this is not my world, i shouldn't be here?

have you ever realized that you don't belong somewhere?

have you ever done something really seriously, you sacrificed many things, yet you were not appreciated?

have you ever been betrayed by people you used to trust?

have you ever caused something wrong, then been blamed, yet you felt so depressed and treated unfairly because you thought it was not purely your mistake?

have you ever chosen a path that excited and amused you for a while, but in the end you realized it was wrong and you regretted it?

have you ever been trying to find some different places, but you kept being lost and lost again?

have you ever felt that the whole world just blamed you and had nowhere to run?

have you ever felt that bad things always happened to you, that made you ask: WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME??

I have, I have ever experienced all the things above.. I have stumbled, fallen.. I have been stabbed in the back, I have been pushed around, I have been hurt, I have been lost, I have been somewhere with no one's there for me..

Just some little experiences I guess.. Some stories to share, some stories about life, some stories about living in this simple life..

Yeah, it is so simple..

Sometimes it sucks, then you die.. so simple..

People are complicated. People make structure, make classes, make differences among them, yet they don't want to be differed in the end?

People are greedy and selfish. People keep telling others to care one another, to help, yet they are always stuck in their own world, mind their own business, blinded by the word: MYSELF?

People are lack of know-how. People study about paradigm, culture, religion, belief, norms, values, yet they keep insulting one and others? treating others badly? In the wrong way?

There are still many things I don't understand in this world, still many places I have never been to, still so many people I don't know..

But I believe, those little experiences I got, can make me stronger, can make me braver to face this world I know, can make me a better one..

"When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were things like astronaut, president, or in my case… a princess.

When we were ten, they asked again and we answered - rock star, cowboy, or in my case, a gold medalist. But now that we've grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how 'bout this: who the hell knows?!

This isn't the time to make hard and fast decisions, this is the time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere. Fall in love - a lot. Major in philosophy 'cause there's no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again, because nothing is permanent.

So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be… we won't have to guess. We'll know." Jessica Stanley - Twilight Saga Eclipse (2010)