LDR

Long Distanced-Relationship, many people don't have to ask what this term means. But for me, it means: a (romantic) relationship between a girl and a boy, and the distance between them doesn't allow them to meet constantly once in a day, or once in two days, etc. But, if you want some deeper explanation, well, for me LDR means a kind of 'test' to prove how strong the feeling and commitment a couple have. It's such a mixture of feeling, desire, and your self-control. Here are its ingredients:

1. Torturous

What do you feel when you feel lonely, and they aren't beside you, to hold you, to speak to you, to calm you, to make you laugh? What do you feel when you want to hear their voice so badly you stay up waiting for a telephone call? What do you feel when you text them asking what they're doing and they don't reply it? What do you feel when you know that they do something fun with their friends while you feel empty needing them so bad? What do you feel when you both say you miss each others so, but you can do anything?

2. Sprinkling

Then you start being mad at them, you both start blaming each other, even blaming the distance, the situation. You start having bad thoughts in your head, even saying bad words in your heart. You decide to ignore them, act like you don't need them. You want them to feel the same as you feel so badly.

3. Understanding

But then you realize, they feel lonely too sometimes, want you to hold them, make them laugh, cheer their day, but you're too busy doing your own business. You realize that they want you to call them, but you just forgot because there are too many things in your head. You realize you postpone replying their text because you're just too tired to type on your smartphone, or it's just run out of power. You realize, sometimes you leave them alone far away there while you're laughing together with your friends. You realize, they have a life too. You realize that (maybe) they feel the same.

4. Strength

Those torturous feeling now become your bestfriend. The razor feels not as sharp as before. You have a shield, you have an armor and a sword to fight them, and it's faith. Those tears and sadness are too precious to be just swept away. Suddenly the bond between you is growing stronger and hardly breakable, too many memories, too many precious things.

Sometimes, a long distance can cripple your relationship, but sometimes it can save it too. It surely depends on your faith, and your commitment. Sometimes it's torturous, but sometimes it's fun. The most important thing is, a failure, or a frustration, or a difficulty would make you learn, and be a better person.

a call

(I happen to study in the city near to the most active volcano in the world: Merapi. At the moment, my 2nd year, which is 2010, the volcano has been on critical status, yes, about to throw its content up. Well, I, who happen to be interested in photography recently, captured the pic of the erupting volcano one day, and post it to twitpic.com. After that, a lady from CNN asked me to upload that pic and the story to CNN's web. Since then, I've been reporting the most recent news about merapi.)

tonight, my phone rang.

me : Hello?

a guy : Hi, is this Prasakti?

me : uh, yes?

a guy : Hi! this is David from CNN. i would like to ask you some questions

about Merapi that you've just posted in our website

me : OK

David: bla-bla-bla...

*confidential conversation*

me : blah..

David: ok so, how old are you?

me : um, nineteen

David: so you're a student then? what do you study?

me : communication study

David: what, is it like journalism or something?

me : oh yeah, it's about media and journalism.

David : wow, great. actually this is the first time i've ever spoken to a student,

and from Indonesia.

me : yeah? thanks!

David : well, i appreciate your kindness to share with us, good luck for your

study and becareful

me : ok sure

David : thank you, bye

me : thank you

^^

I Don't Wanna Fight

I can't sleep, everything I ever knew is a lie without you

I can't breathe when my heart is broke in two, there's no beat without you

You're not gone but you're not here, is that the way it seems tonight?

If we could try to end these wars, I know that we could make it right

How can I live when everything that I adore and everything I'm living for is in you?

I can't dream, sleepless nights have got me bad

The only dream I've ever had, is being with you

I know that we can make it right, it's gonna take a little time

Let's not leave ourselves with no way out, let's not cross that line

'Cause baby, I don't want to fight no more, I forgot what we were fighting for

and this loneliness that's in my heart won't let me be apart from you

I don't want to have to try to live without you in my life

so I'm hoping we can start tonight, 'cause I don't want to fight no more

Remember that I made a vow, that I would never let you go

I meant it then, I mean it now, and I wanna tell you so

I don't want to fight, no more...

My Favorite Quotes

'love is sincerity, loving is happiness, and being loved is perfection .' (myself - 2007) 'cinta itu anugrah, ia adalah air sejuk di kala hatimu kering, ia adalah selimut di kala hatimu dingin, dan ia adalah bunga di taman hatimu' (myself - 2007) 'semakin sering jatuh , semakin tidak takut sakit' (Dao Ming Shi, Meteor Garden 2 - 2005) 'baru jadi manusia saja sudah sombong' (Karyo/Alm.Basuki, Si Doel Anak Gedongan - 2007) 'is it not enough, just to have a long and happy life with me ?' (Edward Cullen, Twilight - 2008) seseorang tidak akan pernah bangkit jika ia tidak pernah jatuh (take me out bachelor - 2009) 'kata orang, jomblo itu pertanda ngga laku, tapi kalo kataku, justru dari jomblo itulah kita bisa tau seberapa lakunya kita' (Rizky Irsandi - 2009) 'cost and worth are really different things' (Luke Brandon, Confessions Of A Shopaholic - 2009) '...cause i know, if i love you, then i should let you move on...' (Mike O'Donnell - 17Again, 2009) i would rather do nothing and be happy, than do something that i don't love (Jack Fuller, What Happens in Vegas - 2008) 'everything is insignificant, but it doesn't matter, at least you do it, because if you don't, who will?' (Tyler Hawkins, Remember Me - 2010) 'aku tidak ingin mengetahui lebih dari apa yg perlu kuketahui (Charlie Swan, Breaking Dawn - 2008) karena sesuatu yg tidak kauketahui tidak akan melukaimu (anonymous)' 'So, you were a friend of her grandmother's, or something like that?' 'Something like that' (The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, 2009) 'It's not kinda weird, right?' 'No, zero weirdness' (Twilight, 2008) 'my dream man is someone who is smart, sexy, never fails me, treats me like his princess, composes me romantic lullabies, sweeps off my feet and leads me up the stairwell. but, you're a lot better then that dream man, because you're real.' (myself - 2010. Inspired by: 500 Days Of Summer, 2009)

kiss

On a Yahoo Messenger chatting this morning…

Me : I had a dream about you last night

Him : me too.

Me : yeah? How was it?

Him : we kissed. How was yours?

Me : we kissed

hair cut

i've had so often bad hair days recently. until at some point i couldn't handle it anymore, so i decided to cut it. before that, i wanted to ask Anwar about it first.

one day, when i was chatting with him on skype, i sent him an old photo of me having short hair. after that, i asked:

me : hon, what if i cut my hair just like in that photo i've just sent to you?

him : you've cut your hair?

me : no, not yet. but i'm going to. that's why i ask you first. what do you think?

him : beautiful

me : umm, i mean, is it okay for you if i cut my hair?

him : you cut it, or you don't, just the same for me. the same beautiful.

me : *sent him a hugging emoticon*

ps. i haven't cut my hair yet by now anyway

Your Love

every time i close my eyes and say my prayer at night
i thank God each day for your love
that gives me wings to fly up high

to reach my dream aim for the sky, you always said:
your head up high, smile on your face and wish
that you will always be loved
the stars will lead you every step you take
don’t you ever be afraid, believe in you
and I’ll be there to guide you wherever you may go

thank you for your love, forever

when I am down and the things go wrong, the world against me too
I close my eyes and think of you, and knew what you would say now:

your head up high, smile on your face and wish
that you will always be loved
the stars will lead you every step you take
don’t you ever be afraid, believe in you
and I’ll be there to guide you wherever you may go

thank you for your love forever,
for giving me my wings to fly high

(Your Love, a song by Andi Rianto)

a letter for you

Yogyakarta, October 6th 2010

00.00 a.m.

Dear Kanda,

Today, we've officially been together for 4 months. It's 4. 4 months full of love, laugh, also tears. You've been making me feel perfect by being loved, even none of us is flawless.

I know that we'd been having fights recently. Each of us did stubbornly head towards our own opinion and ego. Well, I sometimes apologized, and you were sometimes back down. But i believe that it was just a cycle, the step where we were supposed to learn each other's dark side, each other's weakness, and i hope it all can make us going stronger.

Yeah, those fights are just some dropping colors of our canvas of story. They're unwanted, but they just happen and give more life to the picture drawn on the canvas. Well, that hurts sometimes, but it doesn't matter, because i know if i love you, then i should take it all no matter what.

Thanks for loving me. Thanks for giving colors to my life. Thanks for always making me feel beautiful even though you rarely said that. Thanks for being a part of me :)

Love,

Dinda

xxx

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

I made this review to fulfill my college task in Studies of Film class

“I was born under unusual circumstances” adalah kalimat inti dari cerita dalam film The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. Film yang disadur dari buku karangan F.Scott Fitzgerald dengan judul yang sama ini berkisah tentang seseorang bernama Benjamin yang terlahir dalam keadaan yang tidak biasa, yaitu berfisik seorang tua, pada akhir Perang Dunia I. Bersamaan dengan itu, seorang pengrajin jam bernama Mr Geteau meresmikan jam buatannya yang berputar ke arah yang berlawanan dengan jam-jam biasa. Jam ini pun menjadi analogi dan cerminan hidup Benjamin.

Benjamin kecil tidak diinginkan oleh ayahnya sendiri karena ia tampak seperti makhluk tua yang mengerikan. Ayahnya kemudian meletakkannya begitu saja di sebuah rumah yang ternyata adalah sebuah panti jompo. Pengurus panti tersebut lalu merawat dan membesarkan Benjamin dengan penuh kasih. Di panti itu Benjamin mendapatkan banyak sekali pembelajaran hidup. Dia melihat orang-orang di sekitarnya menua dan mati, sementara semakin hari ia malah semakin muda. Benjamin bekerja sebagai awak kapal, pergi ke rumah bordil dan minum, berkelana ke banyak negara, bertemu wanita, bertemu ayahnya, dan terlibat dalam perang. Dengan keadaan aneh yang dimilikinya, malah membuatnya mendapatkan kesempatan dalam hidup yang tidak dialami orang lain. Satu per satu orang-orang di sekitarnya meninggalkan dirinya, termasuk ayahnya dan ibu asuhnya.

Saat Benjamin dewasa, ia bertemu kembali dengan teman masa kecilnya, Daisy, yang kini sudah tumbuh menjadi seorang wanita penari yang cantik. Setelah melalui berbagai halangan, akhirnya mereka bersatu. Mereka bertemu di tengah, baik secara fisik maupun usia. Namun, tak lama muncullah konflik. Benjamin yang menyadari bahwa ia akan semakin muda mulai khawatir dengan masa depan keluarganya. Akan sangat menyedihkan apabila ia nantinya menjadi teman bermain anaknya alih-alih menjadi sosok ayah. Maka ia memutuskan untuk meninggalkan Daisy dan anaknya yang masih bayi untuk menjalani hidupnya sendiri. Semakin hari, Benjamin semakin muda secara fisik, dan meninggal dalam wujud bayi kecil di pelukan Daisy setelah beberapa waktu sebelumnya, jam terbalik Mr Geteau diturunkan dan diganti dengan jam digital.

Film produksi Amerika Serikat yang disutradarai oleh David Fincher ini bersetting tahun 1918 sampai dengan 2008. Beralur flashback dengan tulisan buku harian Benjamin dan cerita Daisy tua sebagai titik baliknya. Film ini meraih banyak penghargaan, termasuk piala Oscar dalam tiga kategori sekaligus, yaitu Best Achievement in Art Director, Best Achievement in Make Up, dan Best Achievement in Visual Effects.

Film yang dibintangi Brad Pitt ini sarat akan makna dan pesan-pesan kehidupan dalam ceritanya, yang diwakili oleh kehidupan Benjamin Button sendiri. Mengajarkan kita menghargai waktu, memaknai hidup, dan mengerti betapa pentingnya arti seseorang yang kita cintai. Kejadian-kejadian yang tampaknya kecil dan sepele dalam film ini sebenarnya memiliki makna mendalam yang berhubungan dengan filosofi kehidupan.

Saya sendiri sangat menyukai film ini karena menurut saya, film ini menyuguhkan cerita yang tidak biasa. Hal-hal kecil dalam hidup dapat dikemas dan dibingkai menjadi sebuah film yang sangat menarik dan berkualitas. Dengan setting yang sesuai dan make up luar biasa serta pemilihan cast yang tepat film ini tampak sangat nyata, walaupun beberapa kali terdapat kebetulan-kebetulan yang tampaknya agak sedikit dipaksakan. Namun, alasan saya yang paling utama adalah film ini mampu membuat kita lebih bercermin, merenungi kehidupan, dan menemukan pembelajaran-pembelajaran di dalamnya.

“Life can only be understood backward. It must be lived forward.”

”Benjamin, we’re meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?”

“Life is a series of intersecting lives and incidents, out of anyone’s control.”

“Time is passing, even backwards.”

“Life isn't measured in minutes, but in moments.”

Beach

what's with a beach?

what's so special about outspreading sand, salty water, rolling wave, and coconut trees?

what's the business with shells, rocks, and seagulls?

well, honestly, it strikes my eyes when I see a landscape of blue, attached with a form of white cottony clouds, meets the ultramarine..

it takes me away off the ground when i smell the vague salt scent, feel the warm wind, and hear the sound of rolling waves..

the warm delicate sand, it's so inviting, so inviting...

and when the dusk comes, the tinge of gold glare tickles the water's surface, creates a silhouette, brings some romance to the atmosphere..

and that's..

that is when i will be standing, letting the gentle sand crawl in my bare feet

i will be holding your hands, staring at your eyes deeply, and saying without any words... I love you

but suddenly the glare's reflection blinds my eyes, i blink for a few times..

then i wake up.. i come back to reality.. but i'm not sad, nor disappointed

because i like that dream, i always do

and i want it to be true

copied from: http://david-f.jalbum.net/Pinboard/slides/beach.jpg

Cancer - My Chemical Romance

I've been listening to this particular song recently

it's such a dark-deep song, with dramatic melody and touching lyrics

tells us about someone's agony of having cancer

Here's the lyrics

Turn away,

If you could get me a drink

Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded

Call my aunt Marie

Help her gather all my things

And bury me in all my favorite colors,

My sisters and my brothers, still,

I will not kiss you,

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

Now turn away,

'Cause I'm awful just to see

'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,

Oh, my agony,

Know that I will never marry,

Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo

But counting down the days to go

It just ain't living

And I just hope you know

That if you say (if you say)

Goodbye today (goodbye today)

I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

well, yeah..fighting against cancer is very, very tough and difficult.. knowing it's such a killing disease that is hardly healed..

but, actually the tougher and harder thing is:

leaving someone we love, leaving someone who's been our reason for staying alive, for..... ever. leaving them in sadness, leaving them in tears.

If probably you want to listen to the song, just click here -- > My Chemical Romance - Cancer Mp3

Our story, has just begun ♥

Once upon a time, i went to a beach..

sometimes alone, with a bunch of girls, or with a jackass in a form of Adam's son

Once upon a time, i stared at the evening sky..

been waiting for a star to fall, i looked at the moon it seemed always blue

Once upon a time, i woke up in the morning light..

dizzy-headed, brokenhearted

Once upon a time, i cried alone..

with no hands to hold, and no shoulder to cry on

Once upon a time, i was trapped by the past's shadows..

no changes, no directions

But,

now i go to a beach..

with my own sunset glare

now i stare at the evening sky..

and the moon had turned to gold

now i wake up in the morning light..

with a pair of wings in my chest trying to get out

now someone holds my hands..

doing the best he can not to make me cry

now i've found someone new..

with new place to go and new smile to kiss

and that someone is YOU

Take me where i've never been

Help me on my feet again

Show me that good things come to those who wait

Tell me i'm not on my own

Tell me i won't be alone

Tell me what i'm feeling isn't some mistakes

'cause if anyone can make me fall in love, YOU can

Save me from myself, YOU can

and it's YOU and no one else

If i could wish upon tomorrow,

that tonight will never end

If YOU asked me i would follow,

but for now i just pretend if anyone can make me fall in love..

YOU can

Baby when YOU look at me, tell me what do YOU see?

Are these the eyes of someone YOU could love?

'Cause everything that brought me here

well, now it all seems so clear

Baby YOU're the one that i've been dreaming of

If anyone can make me fall in love

Only YOU can take me sailing in your deepest eyes

Bring me to my knees and make me cry

and no one's ever done this, everything was just a lie

and i know.. yes i know...

that this is where it all begins, so tell me it will never end

I can't fool myself, it's YOU and no one else

If i could wish upon tomorrow,

that tonight will never end

If YOU asked me i would follow,

but for now i just pretend if anyone can make me fall in love..

YOU can..

Show me that good things come to those who wait...

(You Can - David Archuleta)

Baby thanks for all we've been having these past 3 months, until now..

thanks for understanding me, and loving me for who i am

i'll give you my best, bring you love you want, 'till you ask me to not to

I DO ♥ YOU

copied from: http://www.free-stockphotos.com/download-free-people-couple-nature-beach-stock-photo-3/

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The (Abandoned) Richest Country of The World

*copied and translated from original posting by Agung Mauliady, http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=427044141493&id=1034585500&ref=mf#!/note.php?note_id=427044141493

Many people don't know what actually is the richest country on the planet, some say it's USA, the others just say it's the Middle Eastern countries. They aren't wrong at all, actually. Take USA for an example, it's a superpower country, and only few other countries can compare its level of technological development. Another example: Middle Eastern countries. In average, those countries in desert-covered area have millions barrel of oils ready to process.

But, all of those examples aren't good enough to be compared to this particular country. Even The USA, Middle Eastern and Uni European countries themselves can't beat this one.

and....... so, this is the (ignored) richest country on the planet. This particular country's citizen would be very proud if they knew. But ironically, they don't realize that they're standing on a bunch of diamonds. So, let's see this one's profile.

Wait... does the writer (me) make a mistake? Well, i could straightly declare that this particular country, is the richest country in the world. But, isn't this country currently slumped? With huge amount of debt to pay, poverty, corruption, degrading mores, and the other serious problems that have been happening? Okay, so let's discuss about it specifically, so that we can see how rich this country actually is...

1. This country has the biggest gold mine with best quality in the world. The name is: Freeport.

this mine has been producing 7,3 MILLIONS tons of copper and 724,7 MILLIONS tons of gold. I (the writer: Suranegara) tried to convert that amount by the current price of gold per gram, let's say it's IDR 300.000, multiplied by 724,7 millions tons or 724.700.000.000.000 gram, equals IDR 217.410.

000.000.000.000.000 !!! Could anybody please help me to read those freakin' numbers?

Well, it was just the gold. We haven't count the copper and the other materials. Then, who manages this SUPER mine? Not the country itself, it's The USA!!! The percentage is 1% for the land owner country and 99% for USA as the owner of technology to manage the mine. Even when gold and copper started becoming less and less, 400 meters under the layers, they found a kind of substance that costs 100 times more expensive than gold: URANIUM, the main material for making nuclear fuel. For your information, we can go round the earth by a small car with only 2 grams of uranium! It isn't clear yet, how much exactly uranium is under there, but the latest news said that according to the experts, the amount of uranium substance there is enough to light up this whole world by a nuclear electric generator. Free port has been giving a lot of advantage for a few government officers, generals, and filthy politicians, who could enjoy their charmed life above this country's poverty. They're not better than bloodsuckers!

2. This country has THE BIGGEST natural gas reserve IN THE WORLD!

It's in Block Natuna. Do you know how much the substance of gas is in Block Natuna? Block Natuna D Alpha has gas reserves about 202 TRILLION cubic feet!! and there are still many more blocks that produce mineral and oil just like Block Cepu etc. Who manages them? EXXON MOBIL! gets a little help from Pertamina.

3. This country has the biggest richest in biological variety tropical forest in the world.

39.549.447 hectare of tropical forest is located in Sumatra, Borneo, and Sulawesi. Actually, if this country wants a doomsday, they can have it easily. Just simply cut all of the trees in those forests, and the doomsday will soon come along. The reason is, this planet is so dependent on those tropical forest for keeping climate balance, because the rain forest in Amazon is not strong enough to do it alone. But now, they slowly turned into golf courts and resorts, how ironic.

4. This country is surrounded by two big oceans, The Pacific and Indian, where millions species of unique sea creature live under.

This country's seas are so rich that other countries can also harvest the fish (secretly).

5. This country is the #4 most populated country in the world.

With this big amount of people, this country should have many qualified people. But sadly, the government just ignores them. So they choose to move out this country and work for any other country which could appreciate and value them.

6. This country has very fertile soil, because of active volcanoes and equator line that gives lot of sunshine and rain.

Compared to those middle eastern countries which have pouring oil, this particular country surely is way richer. The fact is, oil is non-renewable resources, someday they would run out of it, and soon they'll be poor countries because they don't have soil as fertile as this country's that almost anything can grow here.

7. This country has exotic landscape yet again, none other countries can compare, from the top of the mountain until deep down under the sea.

This country is very rich! There's no other country as rich as it is! But...what is happening???

Yes, this country is INDONESIA.

for EXXON MOBIL OIL, FREEPORT, SHELL, PETRONAS and all of the GOVERNMENT OFFICERS who sold national property for foreigner's wealth, THANK YOU GUYS ALL..

Here's a story that may reflect Indonesia now, enjoy:

the title is: When God created Indonesia.

...One day, God smiled when He was looking at a planet He’d just created. The angel asked, “What did you just create, God?” “Look, I’ve just created a blue planet named The Earth,” said God while he added some clouds above Amazon forest. God continued, “This would be the most wonderful planet I’ve ever created. In this new planet, everything will occur in balance.” Then God explained to Angel about Europe. In the northern part of Europe, God created potential and pleasant ground like England, Scotland, and France. But in that part, God also created torturously cold weather. In the southern part of Europe, God put little bit poor people, just like in Spain and Greece, but the sun shines so warm with exotic landscape in Gibraltar strain. Then the Angel pointed at a form of archipelago and shouted, “then what is that, God?”. “Oh, that.” God answered. “That is Indonesia. A very rich and beautiful country on the planet. There’s a million kinds of flora and fauna I’ve created there. Billions of ready-harvested fish, and lot of sunlight and rain. I put there, also friendly and helpful various people. They love their culture and arts. The Angel got confused, he asked, “You said that everything will occur in balance on this earth. But why is Indonesia full of good things? where are the bad things? where is the balance?” and then God finally answered, “Wait until you see the idiots I put in the government.”...

and thanks also for 65th anniversary of Indonesia's Independence Day, we, Indonesian youths, give a big appreciation to all the fighters that had sacrificed their blood and tears for this ungrateful nation.

~Indonesia tanah air betadisana tempat lahir beta,dibuai dibesarkan bunda,Tempat berlindung di hari Tua...HIngga nanti menutup mata~